So I went out for a drink last night with one of my best friends. We have had that sorta Dawson/Joey thing forever going on. I’ve always heard all about his goings on with relationships etc and he has had to hear of mine.
Also, I am a late bloomer with the dating and relationship thing. I have always been so focused on music and my career that I wouldn’t focus on finding a boyfriend all that much. I have also just never been a hook up girl. (Not a judgement for anyone that is, it has just never been my thing. I’m just a really sensitive person and there has to be something behind it for me to to be physical with someone)
Anyway, there is always this strong sense of tension and attraction when we are quiet around each other. (For crying out loud even my mom has noticed it)….Anyway, we hung out last night and I was sharing with him all of fun hilarious dating woes and we were just shooting the stuff.
It was getting late so I gave him his hoops and yo-yo (love those guys) birthday card and headed home across the bridge. As I was driving home, I was having all these lingering feelings…
I got home and turned my phone on silent and went to bed….I woke up around 2am to do my usual bathroom thing and checked my phone (Need to stop doing this…it really breaks my REM :)) and I saw a text from him asking me if I was still up? he sent the text 2 hours prior to this and I was like akkkkkk…why did I put my phone on silent? I just missed this? So of course my head goes on spinning wondering what he wanted to ask me???
Also, there are certain set of balls one get’s during the late evening. I’ve experienced this with both guys and girls. Not necessarily liquid courage induced either. It might be the tired thing and then you get tired of holding onto the thoughts in your head and you decided in a moment of not resting for 13 hours, it would be good to release those thoughts….and then now a days with texting and e-mailing and all this instant communication, what seems like a good idea to tell someone at 12am, becomes not a good idea at 7:00am the next morning.
I don’t know. I have a very creative active mind. Who knows, he could have just been texting me to tell me to have fun on my date tonight, or something totally menial.
I guess I gotta let it go…..man I hate that!
~Starr
