Hi there,
It has been awhile since I’ve last posted. What is weighing on my mind lately is that fact that I’ve always been driven to take a different road than most. In High School, I never drank or smoke (still don’t) and was always so career focused. I dealt with some issues in my 20s that lead me on a roller-coaster of being on and off my track. I am now 30 and I feel like I am getting back to where I was “supposed” to be if I never detoured. Whatever that means, I mean, all those detours lead me here and they say “things happen for a reason”….well they are gonna have to, as I can’t rewind time and it does not good for me to sit in regret and waste another 10 years of my life thinking about what I “should” have been.
When Iw as a teenager, I have the whole movie of my life planned and then at 22 when my life didn’t look like how I thought it should, I have a quarter-life crisis!!! There are SO MANY people in this world, so I don’t know what I was thinking that I could have such a special soul. I don’t mean that how that may sound. WE ALL HAVE SPECIAL SOULS! We all come from the same place BOTTOM LINE!!!!!
Lately I am getting back to who I want to be. Pushing where I need to push, showing up where I need to show up and backing off where I have no business being.
I am in a place of motivation and acceptance! I may never meet the “perfect” person to share my life with! I may never live the life that all my friends, or celebrities are living, that from the outside to me looks so ideal and like it would make me happy.
I am starting to see that really NO OUTSIDE ANYTHING is going make me happy. Every single one of us is on this separate journey together.
Last night, I went to a concert alone. I decided at the last minute to take myself out on a date. I cannot tell you how liberating it was! Right now, if the “perfect” person I share my life with is me, I feel lucky!
Have no idea if this makes any sense. I guess it doesn’t have to!
Much love all!
~Starr
